FEELING YUCKY

I started out the day with a boat load of dishes to do    yuck
and then realized i forgot to give my gram her meds yesterday
not smart at all
i feel horrible and i wouldnt of even know that i forgot unless i opened tues instead of wed for some reason weird wish i didnt cuz i feel stupid


SO AN OBVIOUSLY BAD DAY SO FAR

im SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO exhausted
i have nothing to do today at all except get groceries at some point today
and yet i feel anxious or something cant explain it
i dunno must just be really tired and i dont think the meal bar i ate this morning did any justice in giving me energy or making me feel full usually i love them but today i feel like i am lagging and starved!!!!!!!!!!!!


i cant wait to get the christmas tree up and get into the christmas mood maybe it will make me feel better than i do today

cuz right now i just feel emotionally and physically drained

i keep wondering if there is a happy balance somewhere
between fat and thin because
i feel like i have worked so hard but i am still fat

sooooooooooooooo

 i feel like i am draining everything i have to get to a good weight to be happy cuz i am certainly not happy right now

im miserable to be around
i know sorry people

i hate my body more now than i think i did at 265
it reminds me i still have so far to go and the skin sagging is never going away and thats so sad because i am still young

i guess im just  gonna keep a going like they do on the biggest loser and hope for the best soon

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so i just got off the scale i am down a pound from yesterday so that put me in a little better of a mood lol

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i just finished my BL powersculpt dvd
feeling pretty exhausted today and sore