still 188

still 188 today
which is fine
im ok with my weight right now

this is my rest day
so we will probably spend alot of time playing in the snow
and relaxing but not too much relaxing  lol

everyone had lunch and is watching tinkerbell right now
its grannys favorite  movie

i was thinking about how great it is to not be held back by my weight anymore

last year i never wanted to go outside and play in the snow
i was out of breath just by getting my son and i ready
sledding yea right i would have broken the sled at 265


and now we go out a couple times a day
last night around 7 we went  out for a late sled ride down the hill at our house  for about a half an hour it was soooooo much fun

i think im sad of all the fun times i missed for a couple years there

so today i am just thinking about how i am   NEVER   going to let my weight hold me back ever again

i mean i am not at my goal weight im still fluffy lol but i will never let it hold me back or keep me from doing things with my son

im still sad about not doing fun things when he was little but i figure
he still is little he is 4 and hopefully he will not remember just sitting around the house all the time
he will only remember these good time we are having now and the ones that are to come from now on


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im making dinner and its taking forever
im so hungry hopefully i can wait
 i hate eating a snack right before dinner
you know your gonna gain when you end up doing that so im reading blogs to try to get through this moment of i nnnnnnneeeeeddddddd tttttooooo eeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaattttttttt!!!!!!!! LMAO


i am making the most delicious thing ever lol

in a crockpot i put diced up ham
a reduced fat cheese sauce
 potatoes
corn
carrots
green beans
flax seed
and mix it all together and let it cook for bout 2 hours on high i guess i should say 2 and half cuz its lookin like it needs another half an hour this time

its delicious and i believe pretty good for you or so i hope lol
i dont see what would be bad for you  in it :)

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so i am so proud of myself i made it till dinner before eating anything
i didnt snack
yay
say goodbye to 188 cuz ya know im gonna lose some weight this way lol